Why do bad things always come in a bundle? Things are coming to a bottleneck and I am at a complete loss. I am sick of acting tough, sick of putting up a brave front. I need a shoulder to cry on, but gone are the times when I have someone to catch my tears, to wipe them off, and tell me that everything is going to be alright. Why do I always think of her in times of adversity? The face of a koala, the smile of an angel. I miss her. I really do..

Its amazing how a few sentences can describe my feelings so effortlessly. All those words that i wanted to say, to express myself, are all written here. It is by chance that i came across this. The tension of opposites..

"Life is a series of pulls and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

Stressed, confused and indecisive. What should i do now? Falling for 2 persons at the same time, liking both of them alot more than i can imagine, enjoy their company, feel committed to them but they are mutually exclusive. Can i have the best of both worlds? Sigh.

Well.. Please do not get the wrong idea people. Its not what you think it is, but thats how i am feeling now. Argh.. Sometimes things happen for a reason, and it turns out that life, like relationship, is not so stable after all. Its a test i guess, to be able to balance the different aspects of reality. As the old saying goes, life is not a bed of roses. Although it isnt a bad idea to have the best of both worlds in the above context. Haha.

Its alright. Tomorrow will be another day. A better day. Hope that things will iron out as the days go by. :)

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Finally.. 1 month, 30 days, 720 hrs, 43200 minutes, 2592000 seconds of pure torture is over!! Underpaid and overcooked, I look almost like charcoal now. My friend even said that she can't see me in the dark! What the?! And the worst thing is, my tan is extremely uneven! Gotta go sentosa to even it out soon. For the benefit of those who still doesn't understand what the hell i am talking about, I have recently completed a SPDS (Slient Precision Drill Squad) course. I am sure you guys have seen it during NDP, where rifles are being tossed and thrown around. Yes, thats the thing i am referring to. Now that this over, i am going to embark on a new journey. Although i am looking forward to it, i have this nagging feeling that it is not going to be easy. All the best to me!

"Hope, is the best and last of all things. Without it, there is only time. And time pushes at our backs like a centrifudge,forcing us outward and away,until it nudges us into oblivion. Like all things in the universe, we are destinated from birth to diverge. Time is simple the yardstick of our separation. If we are particles in a sea of distance, exploded from an original whole,then there is a science to our solitude. We are lonely in proportion to our years".


Ian Cladwell & Dustin Thomason,
The Rule of Four